You see, I tell myself that I have this friendship relationship with the deities that I work and associate with. I work to view them in less of a master/servant or ruler/subject kind of way and try to see them as the kind of best friend that everyone really needs. The kind that you can tell your deepest secrets too and the kind that will do anything you ask of them because they know that you will do the same in return. Also, the kind of friend that will call you out when you are being a tool. I failed in my part of the friendship today as I removed the respect from the relationship. I would not have treated a human friend like that, so why did I treat an ancient spirit friend like that. Today, my friend called me out for being a dick.
I have since apologized to the spider and I am working to rebuild the relationship. I am also trying to use this as a teaching moment for the rest of my deity relationships. Each day, I want to be a better person and a better friend than I was the day before. I know that this is one of my biggest challenges but I am up for it.