If you remember from last week, I mentioned that I was planning to go to the Spring Body Mind Spirit Expo this weekend. As usual, I had a great time and saw some really cool things throughout the many booths. I took the time to do some things that were new as well and turned out to be pretty fun. At one of the booths we were looking forward to, the wife and I both got henna designs applied and learned a little more about the history and spirituality behind these wearable prayers. I attended an energy meditation seminar and felt the power of combining directed movement with a focus on my personal energy, or Qi.

This was also the first opportunity that I had to bring my kids to the expo. Both are open to the woo woo metaphysical stuff that I talk about and my son is often very interested in the various types of intuitive and energy based work that I do. They are both quickly becoming crystal junkies too and I figured, if nothing else, they would at least enjoy looking at the hundreds of different crystal specimens that are there. As it turned out, both had a really good time and learned a few things as well. I have to admit that there are few things that could have made me smile as much as when my son turned to me after the energy meditation seminar and told me; “That was awesome!”. It’s pretty cool to have your ten year old son telling you about how he was not only able to feel his chi ball, but could feel the energy flowing through his body at will. That is a glimpse of personal power that I hope he never forgets.

As I mentioned last week, one of the main reasons to go to the expo was also to get my aura imaged for this year. The kids were up for it too, so we lined up, sat down and got snapshots of what our etheric fields looked like. The kids went first and were really excited to not only see what their auras looked like, but also to hear what the colors represented in their lives. When it was my turn, I sat down, took a few deep relaxing breaths and laid my hands on the sensors. The moment of truth, had anything changed? Was there any shift in colors or density? The picture popped up on the screen and low and behold, deep red again. Vibrant, passionate and active. As I sat with the consultant, these same words came up that I hear every year. Also that I need to reduce my stress level, focus on my breathing, and stop burning the candle at both ends. All I could do at that point was to smile and acknowledge the reaffirmation that while I do push myself hard at times, at least I am consistent.

There was one noticeable shift in the picture though from last year and years past. The area around my heart had lost much of the color and was now showing a noticeable hole. This has been intriguing for me as I do know that I carry most of my hurt and anxiety in my heart. When I examine my own chakras or have them evaluated by others, it is often my heart chakra that is weakest and needs the most attention. I have done a lot of work on this chakra in the past, but it looks as though there may still be work that needs to be done.

The combination of my consistently red aura and this “hole in my heart” has had me thinking hard over the last twenty four hours as to what the connection might be and how I can work to correct it. I’m not necessarily saying my aura color is bad, but there has to be a reason that it has not changed in color over the past three years and has no trace of any other colors either. Why is it that my energy is so focused around this root chakra color? And does the focus of that color and energy have anything to do with this gap around my heart? First off, when we look at the color red and the root chakra there are a few key words that come to mind. Safety, security, danger, passion, base needs. This is where our root feelings of comfort and safety come from. When you look at the diagrams of basic human needs and how they are ordered, things like safety, shelter, food and heat are in those basic survival needs. These are root chakra things on a grand scale. But there are also aspects of our modern survival that seem to trigger this same energy in us. Financial pressures, job safety, housing concerns and more all activate these root chakra energies and fears.

While I am far from being destitute, homeless or unemployed, I do often find myself very focused on the aspects of how I can improve these particular aspects in my life. I seek greater financial opportunities for myself, I try to improve my home life and my quality of living as much as I can. To a degree, I think this is natural for many of us. Unfortunately, I think it is also natural for us to lose sight of other aspects in our lives because of this preoccupation with physically “bettering” our lives. For me, there seems to be a growing disconnect between my mental aspirations, my emotional concerns and my physical needs and this may be a large contributor towards the auric hole that is developing. It seems that my mental aspirations towards fulfilling my perceived physical needs are leaving me a bit drained on the emotional level.

To say the least, this is not good.

I need to work on setting my energetic balance back to a place where all of my needs are being met equally with no aspect of myself being left out. This will take some practice and work as it has been a practice of mine to focus on certain areas when they need work and then in turn neglect other areas. What I am looking for now is a more holistic approach to self improvement. Something that will bring my focus towards all aspects of my body, mind and soul in one shot.

One aspect of my physical needs that I know I have been neglecting is exercise. I supplement this with fulfilling other physical needs but it just doesn’t seem to do the trick and keeps perpetuating this drive for greater physical satisfaction. However, I have been feeling a call for a while to a style of exercise that has the potential to help satisfy not only my body’s need for movement but also my soul and heart’s need for energy as well. I am going to my first yoga class tomorrow and while I am worried how sore I will be from my lack of exercise, I am excited to get my blood moving again. In speaking with the instructors and researching what I can about yoga, I am seeking to use this as more than just a way to lose weight or gain flexibility. I am setting my intention for this as a way to increase the energetic flow throughout my body and soul. I am seeking to use this tool to help me find ways to direct my power evenly throughout my body and in turn spread my focus on all aspects of my life. I am excited and optimistic about this new adventure and I will keep you all informed as I am progressing. So, wish me well tomorrow as I embark on this journey to rejuvenate my body, mind and spirit.