Sorry to have bailed out on you all last week. Every once in a while, we all go through situations that just seem to throw us for a loop and send us completely off track. Last week was one of those times for me. I sat for most of the day on Sunday in a state of confusion and frustration as I felt my ego puffing up and my confidence shrinking.
I’m getting ahead of myself, let me give you a little background.
A few weeks ago, I got a message from a friend out of the blue that he was having issues with what he felt was a spiritual attachment or entity. We talked about the concerns he had and the issues he was experiencing and it really seemed to be something outside of his own energy that was causing this. I offered to help him out in any way I could and we started off with dowsing his home to see if the energies and vibrations were out of whack. Throughout the session, I found a number of things that were off in the energy fields of his home and himself. As is my standard, I asked Spirit to correct these imbalances and reset everything back to its ideal level. Feeling confident that some progress had been made, I let him know that I was completed with the dowsing and asked him to fill me in on any changes he felt in the energy around the house and if the entity had left.
The next day, my friend let me know that the dowsing had been effective in that things had calmed down for a bit. However, the entity soon returned and things were back to the way they had been for him. Back to square one.
We talked more about some of the specifics that had been happening to him and through some additional research, we came to a conclusion about what this thing was that he was dealing with. We decided to meet up later that week and work on removing the attachment once and for all. Throughout the week, we continued to talk and my friend mentioned that he was also working with some other spiritual professionals to try and get rid of the attachment. I didn’t think too much of this as we typically work in groups and I knew the people he was working with and they are also friends. They day we were to meet up, my friend told me that the other practitioner had advised him that he was venturing into free will territory in his plans and that she wouldn’t be able to help him anymore. We were both a little confused by this, but I felt that it was likely just her telling him that her part in the fix was completed.
We went about our plans and things seemed to be going well for us. I showed my friend some additional cleansing and clearing techniques and we discussed much of what the other practitioners had said as well. Upon the completion of our plans, we got a bite to eat and called it a night. The rest of the week was pretty quiet in our communications so I took that as a sign that all was well. Come to find out that next Sunday, I was wrong.
We had both signed up to go to an event hosted by the practitioner that I mentioned earlier. Midday, I received a message from my friend that he was asked to leave an earlier event due to the negative energy that the still remaining entity was producing.
Needless to say, we were both a little thrown by this turn of events and my mind started churning in ways that I soon found were not beneficial to me. The messages I was getting about his seemed to implicate that the practitioner was excluding him from the group because the work he had done with me had failed and that she was upset that he worked with me and not her. This was not a reaction that I had expected from this practitioner as I have known her for nearly two years and she had always come across as a very open person and not one to fall prey to jealousy or ego related issues. As this all sank in, I began to have a very odd feeling come over me. First, it was an element of my ego being bruised. To think that the work I had helped my friend with had failed, was a bit hard for me to take right away. Especially since I had not heard anything back all week regarding the attachment. No news is supposed to be good news, right? My ego began to run rampant with this and I began fabricating ideas that maybe this other person was telling him the entity was still there to make him feel guilty for not working with her. Maybe it was to specifically take a shot at me. Maybe she doesn’t really think all those nice things she says about me. Maybe she’s glad that I haven’t been making it to her events lately. Maybe I really do suck at this. Further and further down this ego driven spiral was I headed. All the while, my ego being puffed up into anger and my confidence being driven into the dirt.
I reached out to the practitioner and to my friend more throughout the day trying to get a better handle on what was going on. My head was in a fog of frustration and depression and I was certainly not feeling very mindful at all. Being in the middle of this situation between two friends was messing with my head and my heart more than I could understand. Later in the day, I began to get some clarity on the situation though. My friend messaged me back with a deeper explanation of why the other practitioner had backed away from working with him. The message contained information that allowed me to see that it was not anything in particular that we had done or not done that upset the balance. It was more that my friend had not listened to Spirit’s guidance when it was given to him in the first place. He had taken his free will option to explore other alternatives and while what we did had some effectiveness, it was not what he needed to so to resolve the situation on his own. When he finally listened to that guidance, the entity released and things began to calm down.
This cleared up a lot for me and my mind began to settle down considerably. After checking in with Spirit myself, and realizing that this whole time I had not really done that, there were some key things that became clear for me in this. First off, there was a lesson or two for me to gain out of my part in this. One, I need to ask better questions of those that I am working with. Had I probed deeper into the reasons why the other practitioner backed out, I might have been able to avoid the whole situation. Two, and probably the most important, it wasn’t about me. It never was. My ego bruising and my confidence flailing was just the fabrication of my own mind putting myself first.
This was a good wake up call for me to make sure that I am stepping back from any and every situation before reacting and taking things personally.
There is still much that I need to learn about connecting to and deeply listening to Spirit when it counts. However, I think that this experience has helped me to understand that there are lessons everywhere for us and that sometimes we need to get bruised before we can really experience the healing. I truly appreciate both friends for the roles they played in this as I know that things played out exactly as they needed to and I am fairly certain there are no hard feelings left at all.